随便写写 1 男孩篇

手指尖碰触着冰冷的键盘， 泛白的嘴唇，尽管暖炉开得再大，身体还是心也会不自觉地发抖。
没有人给我递来咖啡，没有人把外套塞给我，没有人会在我很累的时候给我个爱的抱抱。

很无奈地回想自己之前还是一个很为自己独立满分而骄傲的人。
虽然自己从不缺女人，但为什么现在会如此难受。。。。

这晚独自一人来到小店，对着向我搭讪的女人说了
我对她说，或许我会单身很久，

因为应该很难会再遇到像她那样的女生了。

我可以一个人奋战。
对不起，这句话我到了这个年纪才敢决定说出口。

别把一切看待成理所当然。

莫名其妙的开始
莫名其妙的结束
不要因为一时的兴起
而开启这intangible 的relationship.

Bright and Shine

现在的努力都是为了以后的路可以少些颠簸
每个人都为了各自的未来或梦想在奋斗
先苦后甜 你懂不懂
没有难 就没有成就感
没有挑战 就没有被激发的斗志。

抗压指数可以再高点
智商too.

I just believe 越努力， 越幸运。

weirdo

什么緣 都好， 我自己斷 的。

我是怪咖 。

can I ?

can i be more independent ?

can i dont be afraid when i was alone ?

can i wont feel regret after every choices i have made ?

can i dont think too much ?

can i be myself ?

can i learn how to let go?

can i be more mature?

can i be more initiatives and organized ?

can i be less selfish and thoughtful ?

can i dont be so easily to get panic ?

can i concentrate on my studies ?

can i think and plan more about my future instead of keep looking back my old memories ?

or swiping phone ?

why am I so weird ?

why my face looks like a shit when i am not smiling ?

why need to envy others lives, opportunities, knowledge, friendship, love, appearances,.......

look, the problem is almost thousand times i have told myself to change to become a better person but it always ended up with other stuffs (i cant really list out them) that distracted me.

maybe its all excuses.