can i be more independent ?
can i dont be afraid when i was alone ?
can i wont feel regret after every choices i have made ?
can i dont think too much ?
can i be myself ?
can i learn how to let go?
can i be more mature?
can i be more initiatives and organized ?
can i be less selfish and thoughtful ?
can i dont be so easily to get panic ?
can i concentrate on my studies ?
can i think and plan more about my future instead of keep looking back my old memories ?
or swiping phone ?
why am I so weird ?
why my face looks like a shit when i am not smiling ?
why need to envy others lives, opportunities, knowledge, friendship, love, appearances,.......
look, the problem is almost thousand times i have told myself to change to become a better person but it always ended up with other stuffs (i cant really list out them) that distracted me.
maybe its all excuses.